Realistic Tales of an American Dreamer

Well I just finished reading all the comments on the nursing profession and I can totally relate to how they are treated like shit, and then when they complain about it people give them trite bs replies like “just find another job”  Come the fuck on, there are no jobs!

I wanted to tell my story because my life blows and I have just a bunch of american assholes with a “pull yourself up by the bootstraps davy crockett” attitude and they never went through half the shit I have, and yet they down me 24/7.  So here is my pursuit of the american dream, my dealings with prick baby boomers, and how when I write a damn article I get nailed by people for not putting a fucking comma in the right place.  FUCK!  Well, my beautiful life in this land of assholes started back when I was home schooled in NC all the way to 15. I had no friends and liked one girl who of course gives herself away at age 15 to some random in a hotel room(fuck this society!).  So, I get sent off to a Christian school where I am the class nerd for getting 106 in English,valedictorian etc.

All I ever long for is friends but I go to a school that is as cliche as you can have it be. The jocks with the whores, the nerds with the gamers etc. So, I become jaded with life and its so called meaning. I started thinking of life and I realized that everything is the pursuit of love but the love is based on bullshit.  The women live for houses and money and security and the men are lust driven bastards looking for a good job so they can “buy” their trophy wife.  I got angry at God and said “fuck what the hell is this life about? this is a goddamn joke”

I read the catcher in the rye at age 18 and I can relate to it a lot. I ended up wasting 18-19 trying cocaine and working at a hellhole restaurant getting screamed at 24/7, hence, the need for cocaine. I stop doing cocaine and decided to be a good man and do my best. I go to 4 different colleges and I don’t know what to do or major in. I’m socially inept, concerned about the big picture of life’s meaning, and don’t have a clue or passion for anything. So, I drop out at 21 and I say “well I will live for God, get a girlfriend, make friends, get a decent job and just be happy ” WRONG!!! THERE IS NO FUCKING LIFE IF YOU DON’T GO TO COLLEGE! I end up busting my back at age 22, lifting 75 lbs of wooden pallets from 6am-4pm, and then going to Arbys to supplement my income because I’m only making $9 an hr in this horseshit country of animals who work you like a dog and then tell you that you are “entitled” for expecting decent compensation.

I spent 12 years asking women out and working hard as fuck in factories hating the jobs but there was no way out other than getting 40,000 in debt. So, I got rejected constantly by every woman, I prayed constantly and finally gave up believing in a God that doesn’t give a shit, and I spent 12 years being treated like shit and never making more than $14 dollars an hr. My brother actually came up to me one time and showed me a check for $7,000 and said “this is what i got for working 8 hrs on this company’s website”.  He is a computer coder. It would take me fucking 5 months just to make that if not more!

I was spending all this time working hard and constantly being treated like shit. I fought and fought and fought to live a good life, have a decent job and find love and NOTHING HAS HAPPENED!! IT HAS BEEN LIKE PULLING TEETH!! NOW I’M FUCKING 30 YEARS OLD LIVING WITH MY PARENTS AND TO BE HONEST I DON’T GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE!! FUCK THE MATERIALIST AMERICAN FEMALE. FUCK THE AMERICAN DREAM. FUCK THE BABY BOOMERS CALLING ME LAZY AS THEY SUCK THE LAST BIT OF SOCIAL SECURITY DRY. FUCK THE FACT THAT I KNOW MEN WHO HAVE 3 KIDS AND A WIFE WHO HAVE A MORE COMFORTABLE LIFE THAN ME AND I’M FUCKING SINGLE FOR CHRIST SAKE!! FUCK THE HOOPS YOU HAVE TO JUMP TO BE “WORTHY” OF LIVEABLE FUCKING WAGE! FUCK THE GREED IN THIS COUNTRY THAT CAUSES PEOPLE TO NOT HAVE A FUCKING LIFE BECAUSE SOME CORPORATE BASTARD NEEDS MORE FUNDS FOR AN EXTENDED VACAY IN FRANCE!! FUCK GODDAMN WALMART PAYING THEIR SLAVES 7.50 WHILE THE AMERICAN WHORE SOCIETY DOES NOTHING!! FUCK ALL THE “PATRIOTIC” AMERICAN ASS KISSING BABY BOOMERS SPEAKING OF THE DREADED “SOCIALISM” AS CAPITALISM RAPES THEIR KIDS RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM.

Fuck this life and all the lame ass people in it who have no respect, no kindness, no sympathy and spend their lives running you around like a dog for 8 hours. Fuck this country of dumb fucks who get mad that a poor man gets some fucking needed assistance at the welfare office but won’t say a goddamn thing when a business makes 254 million in a single year and works their employees AS TEMPS FOR $8 AN HR!!!.So, there’s my rant. Fuck all of you who disagrees. I’m sure there will be a lot of pricks saying “I did it so can you” and to that I say fuck you and die asshole!!! Now, what do i do? Simple, I curl up with a nice bottle of whiskey and my favorite Charles Bukowski book and I don’t give a fuck about wasting another day working for somebody else’s beautiful life. I don’t care about the American dream aka the American nightmare. This rat race makes murderers out of people. first the corporate whores murder your chances, and then year by year people murder them. Isn’t justice a beautiful thing? I’m moving, Americans are just too worthless. Viva la Italia! :)

“It was true that I didn’t have much ambition, but there ought to be a place for people without ambition, I mean a better place than the one usually reserved. How in the hell could a man enjoy being awakened at 6:30 a.m. by an alarm clock, leap out of bed, dress, force-feed, shit, piss, brush teeth and hair, and fight traffic to get to a place where essentially you made lots of money for somebody else and were asked to be grateful for the opportunity to do so?”
― Charles Bukowski, Factotum