Hating the Nursing Job I Chose

I work in a small hospital where our inpatient unit & emergency dept are all one big fucking mess. This is a new job for me (I worked in the loveliness that was geri-psych for the 2 years before this job). Bottom line, I have to help out in emergecy with things like traumas & chest pains…I don’t want to work in situations where i’m making the wrong move could kill someone. I don’t want to learn to interpret ekg’s, I don’t want to take acls, i don’t want to lug & drag & keep aggravating my chronic shoulder injury. but wait…here’s the best part. i have just moved to a new town 6000km away from my home where my fiance has committed to 3 years at his job. We have a joint credit line which is flying through the fucking roof, so i am trapped,miserable & trapped. Did i mention i hate my job??? I think I need to revisit my good friend mr. antidepressant…